the day before...

... nail biting time... Maybe I would be better served if i stopped writing in the blog and actually went and did some useful work! Got a pile of theses in front of me which need to be attacked... the rest of the world is watching the cricket match between India and Australia... I can hear the screams and shouts of the girls in the hostel.... It's almost ten o'clock, it's a hot evening, am sitting with my door open and the fan on full speed right now... Knowing full well that I have miles to go before i sleep...

...the anxiety is building up. I know that the work that has happened so far is not sufficient to carry me through the next grilling session... Will i come out completely roasted and wasted? Or comfortably able to handle all the heat so that I can continue on with the rest of the day?

It's all up in the air, I have about twelve hours to go... Will find out tomorrow about whether i survive or not!

in the beginning... there was interest...

Well, it's day 2 of the effort, and right now, the interest and the motivation is still high to write... however, the same cannot be said about the interest and motivation about the research... Or at least that's what my guide
says!...

I had a one and a half hour discussion with her today, for which i was not as prepared as i would have liked to be, and was given a lot of... ahem... motivation... :)

I just hope that I am able to sustain the motivation. Will be here for another few years.... (5 as they keep reminding me...) Glad of the support that is available around me, hopefully that remains and sustains!

a new beginning?

Yet another beginning. I always start off with something new, I wonder if this will just another false start. People say that one should never delete or erase what one has written... I guess, it is a mark, a concrete statement of where one is at that point of time. I don't really know what form this blog will take, am just hoping it comes as i am going along. Let's hope that the blog grows and develops...

I guess this is another new start in the sense that I am beginning my research in full swing now. At this point of time,  I have to meet my guide in the morning at 9 30. I have less than 12 hours, and am yet to start looking at what i want to discuss with her. I feel like I can hear the clock ticking (even though I don't have a clock...) but am still managing to procrastinate by creating a brand new blog....

Why 'ksiar'? People who know me know that it is a part of my name, i actually like the word. It comes from my second name, which is 'lyngksiar', the name of a sweet smelling orchid found in the Khasi Hills... It also translates into 'gilded'. The word 'ksiar' literally means 'gold', which is, for the khasis, very important. Well, probably not as important as it is for other communities, but the Khasi Hills are probably one of the few places in the world where 24 carat gold is available. The pure gold is soft and malleable, and the colour is also softer than other forms of gold available. Is that why I like 'ksiar'? Well, I think another reason is because it is a Khasi word. I think that is another reason why i like identifying myself as 'Ksiar'. It means that people immediately ask me what it is, and i get to explain. It has become an important part of me, and I enjoy explaining it to people who are not aware of what it means.

Well, I think I have done enough for the first post in terms of procrastination. Will head on towards starting work on the research... So here's to many more posts... Hopefully this blog does not go the way of the others.... :)